June 2010
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currently weigh 109 lbs
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trying to figure out what the heck i wanna do with...
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May 2010
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been restricting for almost two weeks
i weigh 119 lbs!
April 2010
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current weight 125 lbs
still need to lose 5 lbs
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fuck. i’m still so fat. i still don’t weigh 120 lbs yet.
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this morning i weighed 128 lbs but then i weighed myself again a few minutes ago and i weigh 125 lbs. obviously i’m more inclined to go with the 125. anyway, i just need to get down to 120 and then i will feel so much better.for one my thighs won’t touch when i walk. and for another, i will feel even lighter.
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i think i got a job today! as a waitress. but it’s at a...
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great news! i just weighed myself. i weigh 125 pounds! sometimes i love being sick because i don’t have much of an appetite.
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i feel so miserable today. because i’m sick.
plus i haven’t binged in like a week and I still haven’t lost any weight. i’ve been consuming about a thousand calories per day.
i think it’s time for drastic action.
March 2010
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i didn’t eat much today. i have a headache. but i’m not gonna eat. i must stay strong. i have to lose the weight.
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dreams
i keep dreaming about this guy i like. he’s just there. and me. in the dreams, we talk and kiss and talk some more. i read that recurring dreams suggest that there’s something unresolved in my life. but anyway, i really miss him.
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thought #11
i’m starting to slip into anorexia again. my anorexic mind is starting to take over. it’s controlling me. and i’m not going to resist because it’s gonna help me be thin… the thinnest girl in the world.
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i'm fat
i feel kinda depressed today. my size 5 jeans actually fit me. they actually fit. a month ago, those jeans were a bit loose on me. but now they. actually. fit.
i still weigh like 126 lbs. all the fat seems to have went to my thighs. because my wrists and arms and legs and shoulders seems to be about the same as when i weighed 110-115 lbs.
i’m really fat. i’m pathetic. and...
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2 things
1—i can’t sleep
2—i have cramps
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today
today i drove around. i dropped off some job applications and then just drove, with the windows down, the radio cranked up. it was great. it was a release.
Breakfast—1 tangerine, some rice cakes, orange juice
Lunch—spaghetti, veggies, green beans
Dinner—nothing yet
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interesting article about the three body types →
apparently, i’m a mesomorph
but i wish i was an ectomorph
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great news!...& stats
i lost 4 pounds!—i weigh 126!
here are my stats:
height 5’2” / weight 126 lbs
highest weight 130 lbs
lowest weight 105 lbs
goal weight 120 lbs
goal weight #2 115 lbs
goal weight #3 110 lbs
goal weight #4 105 lbs
goal weight #5 100 lbs
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“Education is when you read the fine print. Experience is what you get if you...”
– Pete Seeger (via karri) (via rachell) (via quote-book)
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thought #10
i don’t think i’m the same person anymore. my eating disorder has changed me. i can’t write anymore. i can’t think as well as i used to. i just dream. i spend the day dreaming, thinking about the what if’s. i cling to dreams because they are all that i have left.
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new diet
plan for the next couple of days:
can’t eat more than a 1000 calories
no french fries, no chocolate, no junk food
then, next week restrict down to 500 calories
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thought #9
this sucks. i gained weight. i weigh 129 lbs—the most i’ve ever weighed in my entire life.
i need to re-lose the weight. i need to get back down to 110 lbs.
i know i shouldn’t. but for the first time in weeks i visited some pro-ana sites today. i just can’t help it. i need inspiration. i don’t want to be fat anymore. i want to be at my old weight again. a...
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thought #8
i’ve been eating more than i’ve ever eaten before (somewhere between 2000 and 3000 calories—i know, i’m a binge eater) and i discovered that i have more energy now than last week. i climbed the stairs today (2 flights!) and I wasn’t tired. Last month whenever i climbed the stairs i was always so tired and out of breath.
i guess this is one reason why i...
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thought #7
i just can’t go on anymore.
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“If you are lucky enough to have lived in Paris as a young man, then wherever you...”
– Ernest Hemingway (via katriin)
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Reblog if you need a hug.
anewrevolution:
stealtheskyline:
lizzquitlollygagging:
zabini:
tattooedsmile:
carrottop:
(via behappywhensad)
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thought #6
i feel so worthless and useless. i don’t know if i can go on living anymore.
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64 words per minute! =D
64 words
Typing Test
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“Worthless people live only to eat and drink; people of worth eat and drink only...”
– Socrates (via iamtea-rriffic) (via quote-book)
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thought #5
what is a thought? what does it mean to have a thought? and why the hell do i keep writing them down?!
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thought #4
sometimes life just isn’t fair. but i try to be optimistic and remember that everything happens for a reason.
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thought #3
it’s strange. but i feel really confident and am really scared at the same time. it’s not a very nice feeling (the scared part)
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thought #2
i want to write longer posts of meaningful substance but i’m scared to saying too much. because it is still the internet and who knows who’s going to read it.
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sometimes i wish i could change back time.
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nearperfect started following you
stealtheskyline:
omg where are you guys coming from
hey i found the link to your tumblr on another tumblr. your tumblr seems interesting.
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i feel like writing a story. maybe a novel. let me go and do some brainstorming.
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“It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.”
– William Shakespeare (via quote-book)
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“Education is what remains after one has forgotten everything they have learned...”
– Albert Einstein (via quote-book)
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Write one leaf about blowing the whistle.
(via writeoneleaf)
evokes feelings of panic
makes me want to hurry up, finish what i’m doing
just to please you
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Write one leaf about popcorn.
(via writeoneleaf)
when i was younger, i loved popcorn. but then i got braces and i couldn’t eat popcorn.
i don’t like it anymore.
habits stick with you, it seems.
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http://www.nationstates.net/phrieland →
i founded a country!
called phrieland.
idea: maybe i’ll write a novel which takes place in this fictional place
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Write one leaf about chatter.
(via writeoneleaf)
cartoons, funnily enough,
have
a way with
teachers &
teenagers who
eat
rats and roast beef.
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Write one leaf about index cards.
(via writeoneleaf)
index cards
3x3 squares of white
three cards scattered in front of you
but together they form the words:
i love you.
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“I just want to make love to the world.”
– yours truly
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“Imagination is more important than knowledge.”
– albert einstein
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thought #1
i learned that you should be optimistic, think happy thoughts
because it makes you feel better about yourself and life in general
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http://flyingwiththewords.deviantart.com →
my photography, poetry and other creative endeavors for the world to see
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